Before knowing You, I didn't know what was right for me. Most of my life, I felt that I truly wasn't living within myself. My life was a mess. I have tried a lot of spiritual paths; there are so many choices. It's not always easy to find the path that is best for oneself, and the cleanest way to go.
There are so many stones we have to pass by before we see a glittering of light far away. I forgot to look inside myself, because that's the only way to find out who I really am, where I have come from.
Dear Master! I'm so grateful to know You. My life has really changed. I feel more happy, satisfied. I smile at the world in a more natural way. I'm not a mask anymore, I'm me. Sometimes, I could kiss everyone who passes by; and for me, the world is more clean.
I deeply feel and have faith that there is a way for all of us to go and Master will help us to progress on our spiritual path. For sure, it's not always easy, because of the ego; and I know that I still have lots of things to learn. I'm trying to learn more at the present time. I say to myself, "All the mistakes I have made in my past lives, I have to forgive myself and learn from my mistakes." If I don't forgive myself, I can't continue to live.
Dear Master, thanks for reading my letter. I would love to have Your blessing. I hope to meet You one day. It would mean a lot to me.
How are You? Have You been in good health lately?
I have been initiated for over six months, and have practiced diligently everyday under Your meticulous care and concern. However, I have too many preconceived ideas and garbage concerning useless knowledge in my mind, as well as attachments to this world, and I don't know how to really get rid of them. Consequently, I always feel that I am making little progress in my spiritual practice, and hence am letting You down. I must try twice as hard and practice with full concentration.
Master, how I miss You! Whether it's in meditation, reading Your books, listening to Your audiotapes, watching Your videotapes, or in every little thing in my daily life, You always let me experience Your boundless love. When I'm by myself, I often become sad and shed tears; because I miss You so much. Oh, my Master, when can I meet You in person?
Master, my shortcomings and attachments are still many, my love power is not strong enough, and my level is not high. I don't know in the future if it will be my destiny to renounce the world; but, You and Your ideals are the only goals in my life. Beside this, I don't know if there's anything meaningful for me to do. If possible, I will devote my body, mind and speech to You; and plead with You to accept me, all right?
I'm from Sichuan, and currently attending school in Xi'an. When I visited my hometown during the last Spring Festival, I introduced Your teachings to my younger sisters and brothers. After reading the sample booklet, they were determined to switch to a vegetarian diet, and applied earnestly for initiation, especially my younger sister, who is very simple and pure. After getting to know Your teachings, she went to our relatives to share the information about You and Your teachings with them. Unfortunately, one of the relatives wasn't ready; she couldn't accept You and even spoke disrespectfully about You.
After going home, my sister felt very confused and upset. That night, before going to sleep, she silently recited Your holy name. As it turned out, You appeared in front of her right before she fell asleep. You held her little hand and walked with her on a bright golden highway. My sister has had many other experiences; but since You have told us not to tell our inner experiences to others, I have forbidden her to speak about them.
I wish good health to my greatest, dearest Master Buddha's body, and smoothness in spreading the true teaching.