While On The Path

Looking back on my life since initiation, the changes have been like miracles. It was Master who helped me to ascend from the levels of hell into the realms of heaven.

Since I was a very young girl, I have always been spoiled by my parents because they had problems in their marriage. As a result, they treated me as the spiritual sustenance of their lives. However, I also became dependent on them. The whole family was bound very tightly together because of our emotional attachments. I had a very easy life. My friends and relatives all loved and cared for me, but I felt tired of life and no longer wanted to live. I often asked within my heart: What is the purpose of life.

Finally, I got a copy of Master's sample booklet and book one of "The Key of Immediate enlightenment, which are like precious treasures. I decided to start a vegetarian diet, and I wanted to get initiated. By Master's great blessing power and after three months of vegetarian diet, I easily received initiation. During this period, my parents, who love me deeply, thought that this was just another one of my passing fancies and that I was not serious about it. They thought that it would be impossible for me to stay with my practice because I used to love eating meat so much, but I became more and more serious and was finally initiated.

After initiation, my determination to practice was very strong. I vowed in my heart: Whatever the situation and wherever I am, I will definitely meditate two and a half hours everyday.

In the northern part of the country, it is very cold in the winter. My home is a little far from the group meditation place. One time, on the way to group meditation, I was so cold that I cried. However, I knew clearly that I had heavy karma and a lot of obstacles. I know I can quickly erase the karma only by meditating more and going to more group meditations. Unless I can not stand on my feet, I will go to group meditation.

After initiation, my parents discovered that I was not so attached to them nor dependent on them like before. They were extremely worried that they might lose me. Therefore, they began to strongly disapprove of my practice. I was brought up in a very sheltered and comfortable environment, I never experienced such a severe test. At this painful and helpless moment, I cried and asked Master for help. Immediately I heard the inner sound clearly and loudly, and felt Her great love surrounding and smoothing me. I wiped my tears and my mind became calm. I knew that She was beside me and protecting me. Therefore, no matter how serious the test or storm, I need not fear.

My inner heart knows clearly that it was Master who had protected me and helped me pass the test and cut my emotional attachments, which bound me for a long time. Several days later, my parents' attitude softened and they apologized to me, which was something that I could hardly imagine them doing. Gradually, they found that I had not become a bad person; but, on the contrary, had become more loving and hardly ever got sick. In the past, they used to spoil me and I never thought of thanking them. I did not really love them much, and even sometimes hurt them because of my stubbornness. Now, they feel that I sincerely love and respect them and show them filial obedience. They also feel that I have become more and more gentle. With Master's grace, sometimes I talked to them about Her teachings spontaneously. One time, after I came back from group meditation, my mother, who was sickly, told me that she saw throughout the whole night a very strong white light, and at the end saw two huge snakes leave her body. The next morning she felt very light and comfortable. Due to Master's blessing, my mother, many times, has smelt a very strong scent of sandalwood. The most incredible thing is that my parents told me that they have decided to become vegetarians. My mom wants to learn the Convenient Method. My father said, "How can that be? As soon as I smell that meat, I feel sick. I deeply and sincerely thank Master in my heart -- my true, loving Mother. It was Your blessing power which changed and took care of the whole family.

After my parents started a vegetarian diet, their complexions became more beautiful. Some of their friends who have not seen them for a long time said that they have become younger and more beautiful. The family's atmosphere has become more harmonious, my parents not only support me to go to group meditation, but also their minds are more open and they have become happier. It was not only the family atmosphere which had changed after I started practicing, but also right now it is as if I am living in heaven, the inner happiness fills my heart. Every time I meditate, I am absorbed in Master's grace; everyday is a brand new beginning. I treasure the opportunity to be the disciple of a living Buddha, and I grab every chance to learn lessons on how to change my bad habits and wrong ideas, which have been accumulated over many lifetimes.

If we love Master we should learn Her love and patience. Being Master's tools, we should spread Her love and change our inner character. Then we can change our environments. There is no predetermined fate that we can not change, there is no difficulty we can not overcome, as long as we believe in Master and the Quan Yin Method wholeheartedly, practice diligently, and go to more group meditations.

After initiation, brother Lee changed so much that he was completely different from what he was before; and this transformation shocked his relatives and friends. His transformation was an indication of God's blessing and omnipotence.

Brother Lee said, "Master's powerful helping hand, which is capable of changing heaven and earth, saved me from being lost in this world. Master takes meticulous care of him, using invisible and visible means to correct, teach, educate and guide him so that he can greatly improve his character in a very brief period of time.

One day, three months after initiation, brother Lee, who is a taxi driver, was taking a passenger to a certain destination. Since the day was not hot, he rolled down the windows on both sides of the car for ventilation. When he saw the red light, he stopped before the intersection. Suddenly, a passerby stuck his fist through the open window and punched him in the face. Brother Lee reacted very calmly. Holding his palms together, he said to the stranger, "Sorry, sorry.

At this time, the passenger sitting in the back seat asked brother Lee, "Why did he punch you? For what reason did he punch you?

It wasn't until then did brother Lee ask the stranger, "Sir, did I do something wrong?

The stranger seemed to suddenly wake up and said, "I don't know myself, why I've punched you. He kept apologizing to brother Lee. The light turned green and brother Lee started to drive as if nothing has happened, but the passenger felt that it was unfair to him and asked, "You did nothing wrong and that person punched you for no reason. Why did you keep saying sorry to him?

Brother Lee casually replied, "The person whom he punched was not me, the real 'I' he can not punch. What he can punch is not me, I didn't even know he had punched me. I didn't feel any pain. The passenger seemed to understand what he meant and replied, "That's incredible.

Brother Lee reflected on what had just happened and thought that if he had behaved like he used to before he followed Master, before getting initiation and practicing, he would have definitely fought back.

Brother Lee was surprised that he had held his palms together and responded calmly. He could hardly believe it himself, but he clearly knew that it was Master teaching and fine-tuning him to make him realize that the true self can control the illusion of the physical body. Therefore, he is now more convinced by Master's aphorism, "What is it to endure humiliation? It means whatever happens is meant to be. You have to accept it completely as your own karma. It is not the mistake of others.

In the early days of initiation, fellow initiate Hsa had often reminded me in a humorous and soft-spoken manner, "We are still in childhood. How could it be possible that we do not listen to Mother's teachings?

Before initiation, I was just like a child. I cried everyday asking Master Mommy to come quickly to give me the initiation. Day after day, month after month, I yearned like mad with tears that would never dry up. So, on the day that I got initiated, the excitement could hardly be described in words. I thought, "Well, the greatest thing in my whole life has been accomplished! I felt so elated that I started to feel proud. There was only one thought in my mind, "I am now initiated, enlightened. I am a saint! The sense of pride was so great that I could not control myself.

With my heart still full of pride, I suddenly realized, when I went home to meditate, that I had totally forgotten the Holy Names! I was in shock and tried hard to remember. I could remember nothing. Because of the pride, ego, and that I wanted to save my face, I did not want to ask other fellow practitioners even though I did not know them. I pretended to be calm. Fortunately, Master Mommy had not abandoned me, the proud and naughty child. During one of the meetings with fellow practitioners, brother Tong was concerned and asked me, "Are you able to recite the Holy Names well? Oh, with this one sentence, Master Mommy broke the dilemma of my wanting to save my face! I was immediately liberated from the difficulty with pride. I changed and expressed my difficulties in a sincere and humble manner. Instantly, I got help from the enthusiastic fellow practitioners.

After initiation, the practice was rather ordinary with not as many experiences compared to before initiation. There was not much progress. Why? Before initiation, everything seemed so smooth. After initiation, I got into trouble all the time. Why? After thinking for a while, the words of fellow initiate Hsa rang in my ears, "We are still in childhood! Her words ring a bell in my mind. Yes, before initiation, I was very eager for the Truth. I listened honestly to Master Mommy's teachings. Everyday, I received humbly the blessings from Her. Therefore, everything went very smoothly.

After initiation, when the habits of the ego and pride emerged, I forgot Master Mommy. I forgot that on the spiritual path I was still a child before Her. I thought that I was practicing pretty well. Besides, after initiation, I only thought that everything was already okay for me! This selfishness that was hiding deeply in my heart was also a source of pride. Although Master Mommy had repeatedly reminded us to have a loving heart, I did not placed it in the heart and wanted to shut myself up to practice, "When I am full, I don't want to be bothered by other's dying of hunger. With such a selfish attitude, how could one make progress on the path? These problems always put me in a difficult position and obstructed the progress of my practice.

However, the most compassionate and most loving Master Mommy has never abandoned me. She is always protecting me silently so that I would not drift off too far on the wrong path. She had also warned me in a concerned manner through the aphorism, "If we are very selfish, if we do not mind others dying of hunger when we are full, or if we always tend towards those negative and dark qualities, we, of course, have to know that we are still very far from the Buddha and Bodhisattvas.

Oh, the most beloved and respected Master Mommy! I could not possibly leave You! Before You, I am always a child. No matter in which corner of the universe I will be, I do not want to leave Your embrace.