By Fellow Initiate Lee, Hsinchu, Formosa
Doing public service is like a mirror that reveals my hidden corners to me again and again. Whenever I think of this, my heart aches for Master for having to put up with so much hardship in teaching us. Sometimes it takes many years to thoroughly correct a misconception, even though we have been told the correct one many times. Looking at others is like looking at oneself. In spite of being reminded time after time, at the moment when things happen, the mind, which is even harder than a rock, will have its own stubborn way all the same, refusing to submit itself to God's arrangement.
It is never easy to surrender to God's will! This is only because we have forgotten to set aside our own opinions and listen to the messages from the Kingdom of God instead.
Who is worrying about us? So many years have passed and we are still persisting in our old ways, despite Master's hoarse voice, despite Mother's falling tears. It is time for us to wake up! We cannot pretend any longer. With tears running down my face, I deeply repent. Thank You Master! You did not forsake me. You have put up with me for such a long time and are still guiding me silently with great patience.
I have finally woken up! Moreover, I now understand that fear of making mistakes is also a form of ego. Once being scolded, we always anxiously try to find excuses. Sometimes we hesitate when a resolute decision needs to be made; we are afraid of taking the responsibility for its consequences. The only fruit such habitual "self-protection" may bear will be that we make no progress, but stay where we are. Master has said that the more we practice, the more wisdom and courage we will have. How can I hide myself in a corner and act like a useless puppet?